Just to let you know its 5:30 in the morning and I haven't slept since yesterday. My heart has been to caught up on Love. My Best Friend and I are having a ruff time or more importantly I am having a ruff time with her. She has another love and to me (logically) that is more than wonderfull I just want her to be happy no matter what. Though my emotions are making that difficut because for some reason or friendship is taking a nose dive because of this. I can't even explain the way I feel about her but this artical might shed some light on the subject.
Love, god what a wonderfull and all incompassing emotion nothing is more powerfull than that which pertains to there of. It is hard sometimes though to separate yourself from that emotion to look back at yourself. When we love someone it is more than easy to want them to do what ever we want and when that doesn't happen frustraion sets in. We have to learn to seperate ourselfs from that to let that person free because no matter what that is when that love can thrive and thrive well. It is so hard to let someone you love go but when that is done I feel that love grows to infinate hieghts. Love isn't about sex or doing things for people it's an emotion inside our body and it is very easy to think that if you love somebody they should and have to love you back.
Getting caught up in shoulds and do's and don'ts can easily turn that love into hate anger or resentment. This goes for parents, friends, lovers, and wifes. Truelly if your wife wishes and feels that she want's to be with someone else you have to let them go and in know way could you ever ever hold them to guilt. But on the reverse note you have to let them know how you feel. If they truly love you the will be back or if you truly love them you will let them go and feel free. Being free is so much apart of love and can strengthen it so much it is incredible. We are human and it is human nature to explore and reach higher understanding of things and a lot of the time it is only obtainable through trial and error. We need to make mistakes oh do we ever. Without or mistakes there would be no need in this pursuit of what we call life.
Thinking back on my mistakes I don't regret any that I have made nor do I wish I could do anything different. But one mistake that I have made is that I haven't given myself enough Love and being as brutal and honest that I'd like to be none of that means anything until I get a hold of myself. It means letting myself free it means getting off my fucking ass and going out in to the world.
"There is love and then there is love" for all the love I hold for one peroson it I can't give it untill I have faith in my self.
